Umdlali weqonga ukhumbule indlela ebinjani ejele kwiminyaka embalwa eyadlulayo. NgokukaLindsay, nge ke akayiqondanga into ofuna ukuyivala "kwaye umamele." Ngeli xesha, xa wathunyelwa kwiklinikhi yokuhlaziywa kwemali, inkanyezi yaziphatha kakuhle: "Ngeli xesha andizange ndixhathise konke konke. Ndisandul 'ukunikezela kwaye ndagqiba kwelokuba: "Ewe, mhlawumbi, uyazi ukuba yintoni eyona nto ifanelekileyo kum, kuba ukhetho lwam alusebenzi kwixesha elidlulileyo. Ndafika ngokwenyani, ndimiswe ngaphakathi. Ivulekile ngokwenene kwaye ikulungele ukuva inyaniso. "
I-Lindmanay ichaze ngokunyaniseka ukuba wayenengxaki yokuxhomekeka kutywala: "Utywala bavula indlela yam kwezinye izinto. Ngotywala, ndiyeza icocaine, kodwa hayi ngaphezulu kwamaxesha ali-10-16. Ngentsasa elandelayo bendisoloko ndibuhlungu, yandinyanzela ukuba ndisele nangakumbi. Ndicinga ukuba yiyo loo nto ndisebenzisa iziyobisi. Le yinxalenye ebalulekileyo yamaqela: aphelile abantu, ndenze into enye. Ndiyikhuphe, kodwa andizange ndizise into eyahlukileyo, ngaphandle kweVitamin B-12. "
Ngokwenkanyezi, le ntsapho yayinempembelelo enamandla ekuziphatheni kwayo: "Xa ndandimncinci, izinto ezininzi zenzekile kusapho lwethu. Ndikhule kwesi siphithiphithi. Ngamanye amaxesha yonke into yayiyinto entle kwaye imangalisa, kwaye ngamanye amaxesha iza kuphuma kulawulo, kwaye i-bardak yalawula yonke indawo. Abantu bayadlula kule nto, kodwa, ngelishwa, ndala ukuvuma ixesha elide. Ndandikwesiphithiphithi. Isibakala sokuba abantu abangabaziyo beqwalasele isiphazamiso se-Optiles yayiyinto eqhelekileyo kum. "
Umdlali weqonga longeze ukuba ngoku ulungele ukwenza yonke into ukuba izenzele ubomi bakhe kuloo nqanaba xa wayenoyolo ngokwenene. Oku kuthetha ukuba nzima ukusebenza, gxila kwaye ubuyisele into endilahlekileyo. Kuya kufuneka ndibuyisele ukuzithemba kwabantu endinxulumana nabo emsebenzini, kwaye ngoku othandabuzayo ngeakhawunti yam. "