Entwasahlobo, amahemuhemu avele ukuthi uLily Reynhart neCole kulezi zici zahlukana. Izinkanyezi azizange ziphawule ngobuhlobo babo isikhathi eside - izindaba zabonakala ngenxa yangaphakathi. Kepha muva nje, uLily waxoxa nenhlolokhono nomhlaziyi we-Refment29, lapho atshela khona ngesimo sakhe ngemuva kwegebe eline-cole.
Kwakungokokuqala eminyakeni emine, lapho ngikwazi ukuhlala futhi ngigaya impilo enkulu kushintsha ukuthi ngasinda. Angikwazanga ukubona ukukhanya. Kwabonakala kimi ukuthi ngifa. Kwakunzima kakhulu, kepha kwakudingeka ukuthi kudlule kuyo, kwakungekho enye indlela. Ngabona abantu abaningi, uma kukhulunywa ngosizi nokuhlukana, zama ukugcwalisa lokhu kuyize ngocansi, cola, ukudla, utshwala, kepha ukungabi nalutho akugcwele. Ngikhethe indlela engathandeki futhi ngisanda kubhekana nayo yonke i-shit yami. Angizange ngibaleke ebuhlungwini,
Waqala uRhinehart.
Umlingisi akazange abize ngaphandle kosizo lwe-psychotherapist:
Izinyanga ezimbalwa ezedlule bebengokomzwelo kakhulu empilweni yami. I-Psychotherapist yami yangitshela: "Umzimba wakho manje usubhekene nokunakekelwa othandweni. Ujwayele ukushintshana ngamakhemikhali athi "ajabule" nomuntu okwakukhona. " Ngezikhathi ezithile zokuphila kwakho, ngalulahla ukuqhosha futhi ngangifuna ukungithanda nje. Ngiyacela uthathe izinhlungu ngosuku, okwesibili, ihora ukuze ngiphinde ngizizwe.
U-Lily uphinde watshela ngeqoqo lakhe elisha lezinkondlo "Izifundo Zokubhukuda), ezizokhishwa ngenyanga ezayo:
Ngazizwa nginesidingo sokuyakha, ngoba ngesaba - futhi ngesaba - ukuthi abantu bazozama ukudala owabo umbono wokuthi impilo yami yomuntu siqu ibukeka kanjani noma ibukeka kanjani.